My expectations of counselling were that it would help me to have a better understanding of some of the feelings that I have about myself and how I react to situations.
I wanted to gain some comprehension of the processes I go through when I have anxious moments and times when I just feel that I cannot cope.
Before contacting Julie, I had a number of questions going through my head about me and why I fell the way I did.
I felt that I was reliving the past and going back to try and change things, but the outcomes were always the same, making me feel even worse about myself.
I wanted to find a way in which I could be at peace with myself when something goes wrong that I have little control over but feel responsible for.
The course of counselling I have undergone has allowed me to take a closer look at why I behave and feel the way I do and helped me to understand a little more about my feelings and my personality.
I hope it will allow me, in the future, to be able to understand better the way I feel and why I feel that way and accept that it is not unusual.
I found the sessions were helpful in providing me with ways of thinking that will help in the future.
Being able to accept that two parties that have the same experience and see the past in different ways and allow me to accept that and move on has been a valuable learning experience.
I feel as though the counselling has given me a little more confidence to be kinder to myself without feeling guilty about having those feelings.
I feel as though my counselling has had an impact both on my personal life and in a work environment.
I cannot identify particular examples but in a general way, I feel better able to understand my feelings and not to dwell as long on negative thoughts.
The counselling I undertook with Julie was different to previous CBT counselling sessions I have undertaken.
The sessions with Julie were not a structured and our conversations were led by myself into areas that I wanted to explore.
I never felt pressured into finding something to say and our sessions that were scheduled for 50 minutes often seemed to pass so quickly that it felt like about 10 minutes.
At some sessions I would arrive and think that I had nothing to say or contribute, however, it always resulted in discussion and exploring my concerns during the session, which is credit to the counselling I received.
I would say that I now feel better able to understand some of my feelings and I definitely feel more optimistic about the future.